I am back. (again) It was quite astonishing to notice that few people are still visiting this page. I haven't been here lately, however I do have tonnes of stuff I want to post here, hopefully in the New Year I would like to offer my sincere apologies for those who are (probably) regularly visiting this page, either expecting a new post, or laughing at my bad writing. Either way, I am sorry for treating you like a Jehovah's Witness. So. 2018 is finally coming to a rest. I am ready for the New Year, are you? No, not the "New Year new me BS". Talking about "getting ready," I wasn’t actually ready for 2018, didn't celebrate Christmas 2017 either and I honestly don't remember the first quarter due to the artificially simulated happiness I was on The pills did give me the happiness I was craving, (or was that even a crave?) Anyway I was over the moon, when it finally kicked in. Well, "over the moon" might be an exaggeration, but I was definitely over the international space station. 2017 wasn't particularly friendly either, but the lovely presence of Sierra made it bearable and somehow pleasant at times. But that bastard departed - leaving behind a big, unprecedented mess.(which I am still clearing up) I was accused of many things after a series of domestic disturbance which led me to a two night full board custodial holiday. (I am yet to write a TripAdvisor review on that) And there were several attempts to kick me out of my own house too, The time between me receiving the paperwork and attending the court was less than 48 hours which made me believe that the plan was carefully crafted to ensure that I get no time to seek legal help. As the person planned, no legal representative was ready to help me due to the short period. I had no choice but to defend/represent myself. For the first time, I deeply regretted not watching Judge Rinder and Judge Judy. I spent the following days (and nights) preparing my defence. I discovered that it's easier to defend yourself if you are guilty, than being innocent. Finding evidence to your innocence is like trying to prove your gender to a blind person without speaking and without taking your clothes off. Proving the existence of God would have been easier I think it was a day or two before Christmas 2017 when Overworked, hypercaffeinated me stood in front of the judge and forgot everything I prepared in the past few days. But the judge was kind enough to give me some time to find a legal representative. The hearing was adjourned till the 3rd of January and the celebration for the new year was out of question So 2018 appeared, like an uninvited guest and stayed, complained, screamed and occasionally left the toilet seat up/down Despite everything, 2018 turned out to be one of the meaningful years for years to come 2018 gave me an opportunity to discover my true friends. It also provided a guidance towards the wider path and somehow help me discover myself. It didn't kill me, but each time it pushed me on the ground, I got up and winked at it. Each fall made me stronger For these, I think 2018 deserves a massive send off. Thank you 2018 for all the experiences I had which seemed impossible and unachievable in 2017. You taught me how to wipe tears and convert them into smiles. You also showed me how to transform agony into a laughter. 2018, you were inarguably one of the best teachers I've ever had. But before 2018 takes its last breath, I would like to mention something here. I hope my ex is happy and healthy, the people who listened to the fake stories and abandoned me without bothering to verify the facts are happy and healthy too. I hope everyone who have done me dirty has learned a lesson from it. And those who stood by me, offered me their hands to help me get up and those who believed in me. You truly are an asset to humanity. Please never let anything change you for who you are. And if I hurt anyone this year, I apologize profusely. I have learnt that forgiveness is important. You cannot move forward if you drag the past with you. I am happily moved on. I have also forgiven everyone. The physical and emotional scars may still be visible and will be there forever, but forgiveness is forgiveness deal or no deal..I voted for it and I want it. Thank you once again, good ol'18. Now I am ready to welcome the New Year. (Starts the countdown 10...9....8...) To my religious friends, have a blessed 2019, and for the rest of us, let's drink for a farewell to 2018 and let's make 2019 feel welcome by offering a pint or seven..... Happy 2019..... Comments are closed.
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